Packing Up the Baggage

When preparing for a trip the first thing to do is decide what to pack. After all you are leaving your home, and thus leaving your comfort zone. Is this a long trip? A short one? Is this an adventurous trip or maybe one back to a place you've seen before?

Then you say to yourself, "How much crap do I want to have to haul around with me while I'm gone?" Or maybe you say, "Who's waiting for me at my destination that can supply me with what I need?" Or do you say, "I need it all and I can't bear to leave one thing!"

I have plenty of things to carry, my health, my finances, my marriage, my family, my past, my self doubts, and my affect on others. Among the other clutter I have packed low self esteem, confusion, anger, fear, impatience, and regret. I threw in some desire, passion, and willingness to learn, and of course I packed my Swiss army knife. My bag feels heavy but I am going to move my feet forward because I am in search of a transformation.

 I know what my job description is: mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend, student, chauffeur, chef, etc. I know that I am diligent, dedicated, and driven. I strive to set an example and take care of those around me, but the person I usually forget to tend to is me. What do I like, what do I want, where should I be heading?
Flexibility has turned into codependency and I need to reclaim my self.

I chose the two title words because I know I can't forget to pack them on this trip. I have to be wise, discerning, and thorough and also I hope to have good fortune and discover unexpected things along the way.

I am embarking on a trip. I am packing up, leaving town, and seeking some adventures. I am probably over packed, but since I don't know where I am heading I suppose I can get rid of things along the way. Well I suppose that's not entirely true. I know I am heading forward, out of the brambles and onto a path. I can't see the end of the path or whether it has forks, but I did remember my compass, my canteen, and my boots in case the going gets tough.

Bon voyage, Adieu, Auf Wiedersehen, Sayounara!

I am off to new lands and new adventures. I am going to try new things and change old things.

Here's to a serendipitous and sagacious Sarah!